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What is my nudity about!

Dear XXXX,

I am so glad and happy that you raised a sensible question about my semi-nude picture and the body aesthetics in it. Thereby you are giving me another chance to propagate my political view in it.

First of all, I am 43 and politically aware person.

kotravai 1 Infact not only body, I am an anti-aesthetics person in everything right from Art to life. The moment I got enlightened by reading Marxism, the first thing I did was to liberate myself from being ‘beauty consciousnes. I don’t even do my eyebrows, no waxing, no facial treatment above all no body shaping work out.

I am a mother of an eighteen year old girl!

You must know the physical anatomy of a woman who is 43, a mother and who does not do any work out!

I am not that size zero! My breasts sag. I have very small breasts which fall apart on left and right when I lie down. It sags so much. But having read Maha Swetha devi’s ‘Choli ke peche kya hai’ I keep telling myself and the world that it is just cholesterol!

And about my hips & thighs – I do not actually have a perfect shape! I have loose hanging flesh & stretch marks that is a result of child birth! I do not have a curvy hips at the hip joint, infact that curve goes below my butt, at the beginning of the thigh, infact it looks odd! (According to the accepted beauty proportion). I want to exhibit this! I really wana exhibit my body telling women, it’s ok to be disproportionate! I am working on this for your information!

My political journey has lots of phases! From being Anti-men to moderate feminist to Marxist. It is an enlightening journey that helped me to break all ‘imagery’ about myself and each of these ‘isms’ as well.

In that process, I take up a particular ‘anti-rebel’ activity depending on my observation of a particular oppressive phenomenon. With reference to that, apart from disseminating Marxism (for the liberation of the society as a whole), I am also in the process of breaking, questioning, fighting against the constructed ‘imagery’ on me because of being a ‘writer’ (Marxist-feminist). I am using my body to demonstrate my fight. I am exhibiting my body – both covered and uncovered in this connection just recently. (if you had observed me for long, before 1 year or so, I have never shared my pics so much  )

That nude pic was also taken as a part of this rebelling-experiment. I would be doing this even if I am ‘fat & ugly’ (probably u don’t know my aggression!). It is also a part of a test shoot for something I am working on. It was taken in available light (not red light). It’s a light study as well! The curtains are orange in color in my house and there is a great amount of natural light that flows through that. Me & my male friend are working on a ‘project’ and we wanted to do some test shoot with that. We took some pictures but had some limitations, so we are working to do it in an improvised manner! We are experimenting with light & my ‘unshaped’ body my dear. But those pics are fully nude! The FB / Social media norms would not allow sharing them. Infact I wanted to show pose of myself when I shit and the expression that occurs on face when I put pressure to shit! FB is going to remove it under community guidelines. But I can put up in a photo exhibition may be 

When this pollachi abuse happened and when everybody was writing about it, honestly I only got frustrated! I wanted to tell this whole world and in particular women, that bloody don’t feel ashamed about your body or nudity. Out of the few pics we took, I could only share this! I was very much aware of the perception of ‘reverse objectification’! However I get aggressive under such extreme circumstances and it works for me! It’s like saying those mcps ‘fuck off’. Its purely my tactics like radical periyar slippering the God’s idol! I know I will be facing the backlash, but at the same time I also gain the double benefit of creating some awareness in women through my perspective and through criticisms from aware women like you!

Either way it’s good for Dissemination of knowledge on Women’s body.

Love,
Kotravai!

p.s: Am not self explaining, justifying or seeking forgiveness. Many might be having this question and I use this opportunity to again disseminate knowledge (out my perspective!). I welcome your difference of opinion. Infact women should disagree with each other intellectually! The more we discourse, more the knowledge sharing 

My Body My Weapon

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“மார்க்ஸியமும் பெண் விடுதலையும்”

மே மாத சிறப்பாக எழுத்தாளர் கார்ல் மார்க்ஸ் என்ற தலைப்பில் முழு நாள் நிகழ்வு சென்னை கவிக்கோ அரங்கத்தில் நடைபெற்றது. பல அமர்வுகளும் கார்ல் மார்க்ஸ் பற்றியும் அவரது கருத்துக்கள் பற்றிய கலந்துரையாடலும் நடைபெற்றது

அதில் ‘மார்க்ஸியமும் பெண் விடுதலையும்” என்ற தலைப்பில் நான் பேசியதன் தொகுப்பு.

நன்றி வாசகசாலை

 

Diya movie.. beware!

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#Diya the most stupid, dangerous, anti-women movie I have seen in recent times! I wonder to which century director #ALVijay belongs to!

The film is a ‘productized’ campaign against Abortion, shedding crocodile tears for those lives killed in ‘Karu’. Oh! It could have been kalpana chawla…. Do you get it?

#Director_Vijay seems to have capitalized with ‘Brand #Saipallavi’. The film is not only irritable because of its anti-woman / male chauvinistic perspective but also for its making. The director seems to have just put all his efforts in Poster designing with ‘beautiful’ Saipallavi and went back to lay down on a couch watching ‘unborn child’!

If not for content, the director could have taken some care & concern (like the way he cares for ‘lives’) to justify it as a ‘horror/thriller’ movie. I have never seen such a poor Cinematography / graphics in a ‘ghost’ movie. Video games are better!

The hero & heroine are 19 when they had Sex! What’s wrong in aborting a child when it’s not the right time! Why to glorify the ‘purity’ of a woman here by saying that she was not willing to Abort and put the blame on family members and get them killed by a child… that too after 5 years! My gosh… what are we propagating here! The stupidest thing is to get the child to kill the doctor! Mr. Vijay, she is a doctor, first of all there was no logic why she would call their parents, when the two of them were already 19.. I mean major! Upon that u make her say one dialogue and convert her as an evil… The uncle out there says “if it was my daughter I would have killed her”… ain’t Mr. Vijay supporting Honor Killing? The whole movie is supposed to be against ‘killing’ / ‘murder’ but only propagates ‘murder’ in the name of Punishment. How strange? This is what happens when CAPITAL is easily available for ‘commercial manufacturers’.

Abortion is not a problem in this society Mr. Vijay, it is brands like you who have ‘market’ and know how to exploit People’s expectations & liking for someone.

I was having hopes until the end, expecting it to have some twists.. something like split personality / personality disorder etc etc… vijay seems to be showing middle finger to us and I felt like XXXXX!

While we came out of the movie my daughter says, “Mummy towards the end I felt like this movie was made by #DonaldTrump. May be its funded by him. #Prolife my ASS”!

Are we Humans?

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Are we Humans?

GOD & Religion were born out of exploitative conditions favoring Ruling Class to oppress women and laborers. Is it sinful to speak against GOD when whole of India is crying for the brutal rape & murder of the 8 year old chid ASIFA?

While we have to demand Justice for any religious atrocities which are further proving to be dangerous for children, isn’t it highly important for a society to understand that No Religion or any Prophet or any Religious Reformist can ‘civilize’ Human Beings. Religion is an Institution! An institution to dominate, oppress and make wealth for the Rich Class. It discriminates one another by claiming superiority or purity over others. Thus hate and power becomes its Instinct. Arrogance and brutality becomes its foundation.

As humans capable of thinking, what is stopping us from being rational? What is stopping us from asking this very simple question – when so many GODs are available, why not even one is able to STOP such brutalities?

Let us not counter this question with answers like ‘Sin’ & ‘Re-birth’! Is it rational? If we are convinced with ‘Sin’ & ‘Virtue’ then why are we shedding tears for Asifa? If we believe in someone being ‘Good’ and ‘Bad’ person, then why are we seeking justice from Court? Come – let us sing aloud to invoke the ‘Good God’ to take an avatar to kill the ‘Asura’? If we are going to say that No Religion encourages Rape or preaches ‘bad’ things, please go back to your religious texts and read what it says about Women and laboring class.

We claim ourselves to be ‘Humans’ – i.e Humans who have six senses, who can think and who has the ability to reason out. When we call ourselves Humans, it denotes the evolution from savagery and barbaric stages in which human beings were not aware of Nature. They could not understand the effects, changes and disasters caused in Nature. They had to find solace by worshiping it or seeking its grace for a healthy life. They had to cling on to something to help themselves from the fear of destruction. This belief / superstition later developed into Religion and GODs emerged out of exploitative conditions that enabled one group of people to accumulate wealth & power. While on one hand this group which emerged as Ruling Class and State oppressed and appropriated the wealth of the other Tribes through weapons & ‘Army’, it also ‘produced’ Religious Texts and Morals to make people subservient on their own – i.e willingly surrender to the POWER, the power of Kings / Masters (today it is Capitalist) in the name of GOD; in the name of ‘Paavam’ & ‘Punniyam’. Thus Religion is the most cunning and oppressive tool created by the Mankind for selfish reasons.

We as human beings capable of thinking, learning and functioning only through our senses, isn’t it strange and stupid to believe that something exists beyond our senses? Yes there are umpteen things in nature that humans have not yet explored, but how is worshiping GOD going to help us explore them? Don’t we agree that all explorations are the outcome of Human Brain and effort? Ain’t we able to reason out that the images / morals are only reflecting the same Human Life with all perversion and inequality? Having lived for ages and ages, we are only witnessing more cruelty day by day rather than ‘Dasavathara’ that can kill these evils.

I request those brothers and sisters who shed tears for Asifa or Nirbhaya or any human being to first question their beliefs, because it is US  (the believers in Religion, Caste & any such non-materialistc Idealism) who are blockades to Justice, the real justice that will establish equality in this society. We believers – the unscientific idealists are the protectors of the hegemony that sanction authority to ‘teach lesson’ to our ‘enemies’. We believe in ‘destroying’ & ‘punishing’ the ‘bad people’ without questioning the (ruling class) dictionary that defines something as ‘right’ or ‘wrong’, something as ‘good or ‘bad’, something as ‘superior’ or ‘inferior’. We believers do not question the reason for the existence of such conflicting conditions such as good / bad, rich / poor, pure / impure, powerful / powerless, Religion vs Religion, Caste vs Caste, Sex vs Sex, Race vs Race etc., we are happily convinced with the ‘Paavam’ / ‘Punniyam’ story or ‘Good’ person vs ‘bad person’. At the best we may blame a Mother for the ‘bad’ upbringing of a child.

A human being could be a ‘believer’ either because of ignorance or out of selfishness (the later being the top most reason though). Yes as humans if we are not able to question the beliefs, rather FAITH that sanctions authority to very few to use those beliefs against a fellow human being to harass, to kill, to rape, to oppress and to exploit  then are we worthy enough to call ourselves ‘civilized human beings’?

#JusticeforAsifa #Unnao #VAW #Patriarchy

 

SDurga – sexy enough to spit!

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S### Durga (Originally Sexy Durga) is a hardcore political critic movie spoken in common ‘Man’s’ language. I am in awe with the subject and unconventional film making that #SanalKumar Sasidharan chooses. He proves that content outshines form. #SDurga not only stands out for its ‘storyless subject’ but the way it has been filmed. Passion and Political commitment is what it takes to produce such films.

I remember the poem – road not taken! But the road that Sanal Kumar takes us is the same road that we travel every second, every minute, however not been ‘repaired’. To escape from this road, bypass roads have been created or the dents have been justified, ‘Tips’ have been offered by ‘virtuous’ people for effective maintenance of the ‘road’ rather than making it accessible for everyone. Thus it becomes a road not taken – path being consciously ignored for the benefit of Oppressors.

Tons of thanks to #SanalKumarSasidharan and #SDurga team for making a ‘propaganda film’ without ‘cinematizing’ it! Propaganda becomes a taboo in films. Am glad that you did it, probably making it a ‘new genre’, atleast in my understanding!

This form is definitely new and inspiring. It has opened newer hopes for Political Activists to speak their heart out in the so called ‘Entertainment’ Medium. Why would someone call this an alternate film? Is the pathetic condition of Woman (or any gender) in society an alternate problem in this society? Aren’t these ‘masala’ films an alternate and deviation from the ‘reality’? We should be terming them as ‘hyper reality’ movies… I guess.

I am not going to narrate the story, because it has to be watched and experienced. However, as Sanal himself has mentioned in his interview, the festival intercut and the end, rather endless end attempts to spit on the hypocrisy of this society.

This Patriarchal society is not only a threat to women but also Men, Couples, Children and every damn life on this planet. Myself being a victim of moral policing when my partner was subjected to assault on road for holding hands and walking can write pages and pages on how fearful it is to live in this ‘dark society’, but what is the use unless and until it is being voiced at large scale.

S###Durga struggles to be that voice and it is shameful as always that such voices are suppressed. Let’s stop calling such films an alternate film and bring it to mainstream.

Dear comrade Sanal Kumar Sasidharan, please do make many such movies and politicize this ‘numb’ society in your own way and we shall be with you.
With love,
kotravai

P.S. Infact I had gone alone to the movie and there was one woman along with a man. So, I was the only woman alone watching this movie amidst about 7 or 8 people in PVR. I had to cross so many male gazes while I went alone into the mall, when I came out to take a cab, inside the cab! I kept thanking Sanal 🙂

 

Women’s Day recognition

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