I am so glad and happy that you raised a sensible question about my semi-nude picture and the body aesthetics in it. Thereby you are giving me another chance to propagate my political view in it.
First of all, I am 43 and politically aware person.
Infact not only body, I am an anti-aesthetics person in everything right from Art to life. The moment I got enlightened by reading Marxism, the first thing I did was to liberate myself from being ‘beauty consciousnes. I don’t even do my eyebrows, no waxing, no facial treatment above all no body shaping work out.
I am a mother of an eighteen year old girl!
You must know the physical anatomy of a woman who is 43, a mother and who does not do any work out!
I am not that size zero! My breasts sag. I have very small breasts which fall apart on left and right when I lie down. It sags so much. But having read Maha Swetha devi’s ‘Choli ke peche kya hai’ I keep telling myself and the world that it is just cholesterol!
And about my hips & thighs – I do not actually have a perfect shape! I have loose hanging flesh & stretch marks that is a result of child birth! I do not have a curvy hips at the hip joint, infact that curve goes below my butt, at the beginning of the thigh, infact it looks odd! (According to the accepted beauty proportion). I want to exhibit this! I really wana exhibit my body telling women, it’s ok to be disproportionate! I am working on this for your information!
My political journey has lots of phases! From being Anti-men to moderate feminist to Marxist. It is an enlightening journey that helped me to break all ‘imagery’ about myself and each of these ‘isms’ as well.
In that process, I take up a particular ‘anti-rebel’ activity depending on my observation of a particular oppressive phenomenon. With reference to that, apart from disseminating Marxism (for the liberation of the society as a whole), I am also in the process of breaking, questioning, fighting against the constructed ‘imagery’ on me because of being a ‘writer’ (Marxist-feminist). I am using my body to demonstrate my fight. I am exhibiting my body – both covered and uncovered in this connection just recently. (if you had observed me for long, before 1 year or so, I have never shared my pics so much )
That nude pic was also taken as a part of this rebelling-experiment. I would be doing this even if I am ‘fat & ugly’ (probably u don’t know my aggression!). It is also a part of a test shoot for something I am working on. It was taken in available light (not red light). It’s a light study as well! The curtains are orange in color in my house and there is a great amount of natural light that flows through that. Me & my male friend are working on a ‘project’ and we wanted to do some test shoot with that. We took some pictures but had some limitations, so we are working to do it in an improvised manner! We are experimenting with light & my ‘unshaped’ body my dear. But those pics are fully nude! The FB / Social media norms would not allow sharing them. Infact I wanted to show pose of myself when I shit and the expression that occurs on face when I put pressure to shit! FB is going to remove it under community guidelines. But I can put up in a photo exhibition may be
When this pollachi abuse happened and when everybody was writing about it, honestly I only got frustrated! I wanted to tell this whole world and in particular women, that bloody don’t feel ashamed about your body or nudity. Out of the few pics we took, I could only share this! I was very much aware of the perception of ‘reverse objectification’! However I get aggressive under such extreme circumstances and it works for me! It’s like saying those mcps ‘fuck off’. Its purely my tactics like radical periyar slippering the God’s idol! I know I will be facing the backlash, but at the same time I also gain the double benefit of creating some awareness in women through my perspective and through criticisms from aware women like you!
Either way it’s good for Dissemination of knowledge on Women’s body.
p.s: Am not self explaining, justifying or seeking forgiveness. Many might be having this question and I use this opportunity to again disseminate knowledge (out my perspective!). I welcome your difference of opinion. Infact women should disagree with each other intellectually! The more we discourse, more the knowledge sharing